Hello Sunshines!
I cannot imagine what I would do after one of my goals is completed. It is the second thing I have on my mandatory to-do list right now. An action that is there and I always look forward to doing, also another excuse to randomly get up from where I am and go recharge myself. After it is thoroughly completed, there will be a moment I know I will find myself in the middle of a road, looking both ways and not knowing where to go next.
Fast forwarding, coming to have a job I love, looking forward to making it a career, and adding vital goals to start new beginnings, has really taken a toll on me on where I stand in life. Growing up I had envisioned a different life, don’t get me wrong I love where I am now. The quiet and making my own decisions has helped me see the truth in some situations I did not see before. I guess that’s part of growing up.
One thing is for sure that we may think changes in the way the mind, or feelings, work. For a very long time, I have wondered if I encountered a different scene would the mental scenarios change? Would the scenes of reruns from Friends make it better, or would I need to seek outside assistance to search for a better channel? Would the 200 plus individual mental state change because she finds herself with a new number to check off? Would the victim simply forget it ever happened? Not really. In my opinion, I do not think so, maybe not without adding newer memories. The physical changes we make can help us change our mental state, but it will not do it by itself, nor will it all eventually go away. I have realized that if the physical changes, the mental, or emotional, it does not totally change right away. There is much more work to do. Having to dream of what I wanted, to come and find that what I have is what I really needed at some point in my life. Asking why I could not have been here before, what was I doing, or better yet thinking… what happened that I took a long pause in life.
Sometimes the mind wanders, affecting the feelings at that moment that at some point, we realize we have been doing nothing but feeling vulnerable, alone, sad, or even happy. But because the mind wanders, sometimes it is hard to wander back…finding something mandatory to do aids those moments. For instance, taking an art class when you do not know how to draw or learn a new instrument, or open a channel when you are a shy person…making things happen takes time, takes our thoughts and feelings towards this new mandatory to-do list. It keeps us busy working on something for ourselves, something new that we can talk about, or keep it a secret to then have conversation starters. Never have I ever thought of going to open a new goal and being halfway there, but here I am, almost done again and ready for a new adventure. Just which one? Who will be around on this new path? How far do I have to go this time, and will I be so busy that the mental or emotional state be too occupied to want to be on their own?
If we are lost, if we have been mentally lost…add something to that list. Not to just do it but to keep the mind busy. Give yourself accountability, schedule the time to do it, and if you can, take the time to relax, shed the tears you need but always wander back to do what you want to do. People will come and try to take it away, find yourself, find your mind and emotions, link it to something positive. Mental health workers are also there for professional guidance,
No matter how long it takes, if you are happy, busy with life, enjoying life, the possibilities will approach along the way.
For now, I am busy. For later, I will be in the middle of the road looking for the next adventure. I hope to meet up with you somewhere along the way.
-SweetBetty 💋
