A force when we together

Buenas to my friends.
 A day like today is a beautiful day. Not only because I left work early but because it was report card day at my kid school. I got great news again. In a class she didn't do to well but its geometry and its her first year at it. She can make it, we know she can.
Everyday that passes by I come to the same realization that my life is just the way it should be. Whether I have cried blood tears I know that this road is where I should be. With my kid next to me, anything positive is possible. Now I am not gonna like, I have tried to see who's a good man to be a good role model for her. But to be honest, so far only my dad has been here for us. I mean, I have meet good friends but when it comes to her, I can't mix. I feel that they have no 1000% male respect to be there for her in case of anything.
I am working hard for her to know that I am here for her and that I will not exchange her for anyone on this earth. I see how girls choose their boyfriends over their kids because they need "their" happiness as well. But for me, in my brain, I understood you need a man to be happy so you aren't happy with your child? What kind of lame excuse is that. I know we all need that special person to be loved but how can anyone think of themselves when they have a little one or a teen that needs love too? or a teen who's going through their hormonal stage and your not there. Why is it so hard for a women to realize that the sweet human you gave birth too needs you too.
I need my daughter, I need my faith in God, I need my mom. I need to be healthy, I need to live for them and to see what God has for me to help my family.
I'm not saying I don't think of spending my senior years with a special man but what I am saying is that right now, my daughter is my priority. She is the reason God gave to keep on living. I do put God first but He gave me a special reason for my future steps to be positive. That reason is my daughter. Now that she exsist why would I destroy that. I am here because God sent me and maybe along the way I wanted to leave. But with her, my kid, my reason to live, is the reason I am here. I am living.
The force I feel with my faith and her, is a force that only God knows when its time to leave this world and meet again. I know that also, somehow my mother is enjoying her time with her grandaughter in ways that maybe she didn't get to spend with me.
Its hard, its nice and with her we can make it. All of us.

xo