Well its Saturday. I'm in bed, with my cat, enjoying some KLoveRadio , which always uplifts my spirits when ever I tune in. and happily here blogging away. Trying to be more positive than ever. I say that because last weekend I wasn't feeling too good and I really don't want to feel like that. But I been praying, having my alone time and most of all having the Faith I need to, in God. Because only He knows what's the purpose of all this. So today, I'm happily enjoying the little extras that life has for me. NYC your cold today but inside my heart is all cozy. :-)
My mind is all over the place now so I'll try and type in a way to organize what I am trying to project to you. My Thanksgiving went well. My family from LI came to my place and it was a very well spent day. I got up early, had my coffee of course. Made sure I called my silly friend before his family went to his house. Always good to hear his voice. But happier to know that he's home and calls can be made when ever. (he knows, he knows lol) I saw my little cousins, which aren't so little anymore. But thats what life is about growing up. Friday, no work woohoo...and those left overs were the best!! But today I'm just relaxing. After all the holiday crazy and the one coming up (Christmas) I need this alone time. Well not so alone, my kitty is with me.
This month has been sorta interesting. I actually, am still, realizing that I have forgiven a certain someone who hurt me in the past. Now I'm not talking about 5th grade things, adult stuff. But as I'm here, sitting down, I think... no what I actually mean to say is that I feel the Forgiveness. The forgiveness of whatever has happened in life at that time. We all know no one is perfect and within all the commotion we should accept those we love the way they are. But when that person is just too much then something should change. So when I decided to stop and walk away, with tears and pain, I left. I don't regret anything because at that time I knew that with love in my heart I was capable of loving someone with all their flaws AND capable of walking away for myself. But now, after many years I'm feeling that my heart, my life is putting the pieces back together. And no not back to what it was because you can't glue something back without the cracks. But feeling happier, free. Free from that dark memory. Making room for new things, like more positive thoughts. More faithfulness and quotes. Yes, if you knew me personally you would agree, I'm a quote freak, lol.
But what lead me here is a particular person. Whom by time he will realize he had more of an impact on me that what I actually realized. I mean, a human body can hold so much that when its time to start again...it does. It does slighlty different but it does. And if this particular person has been through the worst being where he was, then it shows me that if he can do it then I can also. Not exactly doing his same steps but moving on. Having to do better because there are people who wants you to be better. So now I feel like I'm rambling but I do hope you all know what I am trying to say.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that life has so many wonderful things that we need to stop and enjoy. Sounds to oridinary but it actually means alot. For instance, I have Instagram and I mostly post quotes. And wow, I been getting some nice feedback and I'm happy to know other people agree to what I post. While others are lost, I post something for them and they like or comment on it, shows me there are people out there paying attention to your words. And that is why I am ALWAYS careful with the words I say to others. You never know who may need the extra encouragement. I love my instagram friends. Some may be on the wrong wrong road but I do know they will find their way. Girls, we all find our way. Trust me. I may be older but that only shows you that I do understand and know there is a better road to jump into. *hugs to them all*
Ok, so Christmas is coming. Love the holiday cheers and movies. But most of all grateful that my Faith in God keeps growing. Everyday I have reason to why I should continue to be who I am. To why I keep having high hopes in my silly friend (he knows), in my kid, my mom and the growing relationship my sister and I are having. With all the positive why shouldn't my Faith keep growing. Everything happens for a reason and I should be looking at a better tomorrow by accepting today and its little extras. I mean, if we don't stop and accept , thank or learn from the little extra things in life then what will the journey conrtuct of. hmmm, well I think thats a totally entire blog.
Thank you so much for reading this far. Sorry for any typos or misunderstanding. Any questions just ask, And remember to follow my MY TWITTER account to get an everyday update. So be safe everyone.
xoxo
-SweetManhattnGirl-
P.S. If your surrounded by sadness, be the change. Get up and get Happy. So something silly. Even if your surrounded by sadness, negative or nonsense, Be the change. You don't have to jump because everyone else is, skip around and you'll be amazed of how many people will follow you.
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